Boring

Life is so bored with nothing better to do, it is a rainy afternoon and i has to stay at home to write this post since i'm so bored and can't think of anything to do haha... At first intend to sleep till 12 at least because i have nothing to do if i wake up, but i was awaken at 10!!! But is ok, although i couldn't get back into my dream, i still lie on de bed and day dream haha... (better than nothing right?) Then here came another problem, as i was lazy to go down and have lurch, so i make myself so noodles(men-ke-man). Suddenly when i cook i feel very excited, maybe i really interested in cooking haha, however when i start eating i find the taste a bit sour but i never care and i finish it haha... (is not my fault to make the taste sour, don't think wrongly)

Sometimes i feel that i'm a strange person, i always think tt by smiling or rather laughing out can solve a lot of problems, which also can make myself happier. However, sometimes i feel very sad inside but i just laugh it out, so tt my brothers will not worry about me... is what i said really true i also not so sure about myself? Intend to write a lot however my mind is blank again, maybe continue next time bah......

I always wonder who will be the one to really understand me..... i'm waiting for the inner me...?

Changes

Not sure what to say, i felt that a lot of things changes around me, or rather i changes, i also not so sure about myself haha...... I just felt that things were not going so good around me everyday but i don't know why!!! Recently i felt that i become very bad luck, both my hands got burnt and cuts around, then tonight i went to buy "teh ice"(take away) but halfway the bag got hole and the drink leak away haha...... Hmm, still got a lot i can't remember as who the hell noob will always think about the past that make me so painful haha......

By the way i gone back to the noob shop to work haha...... As a part time instead of full time, also the paid was higher so i went back. However, i find that something is not right this time as something is just not right. Recently, too much things happened that make me very confuse so what i did may be wrong i also not know...... What is the something actually, even me myself don't know......

Where i belong, only my soul know my future route......

Dead

After 2 weeks staying over at guang zhou i finally back in singapore today morning at 4. About 4 hours in the small freaking tiger airways i really feel like jumping off the plane haha, i only can force myself into sleep to past this 4 hours journey. I alighted at the buget terminal, it is really buget as it don't even have a fast food restaurant and my stomach was so empty that moment, haiz...

Until i reach home i can't sleep well because i had not got my O level results. Until about 3 my friends accompany me went to school and took my results and after all, hopes gone. The results were really really bad, i also not sure what to say, a lot of friends ask me to cry it out to make myself more comfortable but i will not!!! ITE lor, all my fault as i didn't work hard, cry also no use wat.(unless cry can make me into poly)

It was lucky that i still have a lot of friends and brothers supporting me, without them i really feel that staying alive is boring haha... At least until now no one look down on me as i can not make it to poly (i hope they don't lar haha).

Happy Valentine Day to all my brothers & friends, and also enjoy Happy New Year..... look forward to our future......

China

I'm now writing this post at guang zhou, it is so boring here, i want to go back to singapore as soon as possible, everyday i am counting the day that i can go back. Worst of all, my grandparents always disturb me haha, there is never a day here that i can rest in peace, every time say me this say me that then the last phrase will be, " it is for your own good..." , I have enough!!!

Yesterday worst, it was about 11pm and i going down for supper with my uncles, then i lost my way sia, take me half an hour to find back my way home. Actually in the middle of the road i'm going to reach the restaurant, however i stop halfway as i feel that i was on the wrong track so i walk back. If i walk a bit more and i will reach the restaurant, i feel that i was so stupid tt time......

There is about 5 more days......