byebye

Mr Weak has currently quit blogging, he may or may not coming back again but he will always alive at mr_weak@msn.com......





FAREWELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bad Day

Today is another night with full moon, recently the night has been so beautiful, just that the stars in the sky ws not that much haha...... Today was a bad day for me in the begining, early in the afternoon i was "half deaf", don't know for what reasons my right ear was nearly mute after finish bathing, at first i thought was water stuck in the ear however it was not. The whole day i felt so uncomfortable as i can't hear what others were talking to me clearly and i speak very soft as i can't hear how loud i talking, the whole day was crap, haiz... When having dinner, i bite a fish bone and my gum was bleedy, WHAT A DAY haha......

About 2 more weeks ite will start, a lot of things happened in this past few month of holidays, time past so fast... Next week i am leaving Singapore again, 5 days of overseas, look like quite short but is very long to me as after i came back from overseas will be school time!!! I hope ite's life wil be fine, hope that will be "peaceful" there haha......

I felt that time past very slow without "you"......

Nothing

So long never blog liao, actually intend to quit blogging but nvm, too boring so writing smething better than nothing haha, i think i haven't been updating for the past few weeks...? Recently i always hang out with my friends at night and i realise that the night sky was very beautiful as the moon is so bright and there were so many stars around the moon, maybe one night i climb up to mount faber and i will have a better view of the sky...... I feel glad that going out with my friends, i can laugh out those unhappy things which store inside my mind, those laughter really make me an enjoyable day. Although sometimes we maybe childish but we enjoy being like small kids doing some childish moves, we enjoy and laugh through it......

A few days ago i went to Dover ITE to report for entering the Electrical Engineering course. After leaving the school, something come to my mind, i talk to myself that i regret what i did in the past, maybe i really did not put in the effort to take my O level so end up entering ITE. However this was the path i chose and was too late to turn back, i just felt sorry to those teachers that help me a lot, i hope i can repay them somedays. I don't expect to be very good but i hope i can show some results to them in the future as pay back, at least i didn't waste their effort, i really hope that i can buck up......

I feel that i'm going to become a piece of thrash if i continue to be myself......

relax?

Last few days i went out for holidays with my friends at one of our friend's house. Her house was big enough to fit at least 10 person so we can save money for chalet haha... We had so much fun over these few days as we play until crazy? The first day i remember we play hide-and-seek at about 12 midnight, her house have 3 levels and when all the lights went off the house was so creepy hehe......

There was one thing i had ever done in my life as we play manjong!!! From night 9pm till 7am, normally this timing was my sleeping time but these few days we keep playing at this time. After finish the game then we went to bed and we wake up at afternoon 4pm sia haha......

Haiz, too tired to continue to write on, sometimes writing blog i feel a bit boring as nobody come see de, anyway just write bah, who cares haha......

hatred

Today i am writting again in front of my com with my noodles (meh-ke-mee) haha, no choice as i was being force to stay at home by my parents. This time my noodles was much better than last time as it was delicious haha, i wonder what am i ging to do next after writing this post as i only can do something at home. Sometimes, i feel tht home = jail to me, some more i was being force to stay home, i really don't understand what my parents thinking, past few days i was out and reach home near 11 30 then they complaint don't know what shit, i don't think i have any wrong as i was no longer small kids, why can't they be more understandable??? I feel that instead of treating them as my parents, maybe i should try treating them as my enemies......

Recently i just don't feel good, however spending time with my friends outside i feel refresh. However when i reach home, i feel that i was a bird being keep in a cage, so dead... I just don't feel that home is no longer as as sweet as before. In my mind, i only feel that without friends, i have no more reasons or living, i have longer think of my parents anymore...

Anyway, i start to worry about my future. As i was going to ite to study, i feel that if i can not even make it, i will learn to be a chef (confuse)... Why my problems always keep coming and they were never be solve unless........?

Boring

Life is so bored with nothing better to do, it is a rainy afternoon and i has to stay at home to write this post since i'm so bored and can't think of anything to do haha... At first intend to sleep till 12 at least because i have nothing to do if i wake up, but i was awaken at 10!!! But is ok, although i couldn't get back into my dream, i still lie on de bed and day dream haha... (better than nothing right?) Then here came another problem, as i was lazy to go down and have lurch, so i make myself so noodles(men-ke-man). Suddenly when i cook i feel very excited, maybe i really interested in cooking haha, however when i start eating i find the taste a bit sour but i never care and i finish it haha... (is not my fault to make the taste sour, don't think wrongly)

Sometimes i feel that i'm a strange person, i always think tt by smiling or rather laughing out can solve a lot of problems, which also can make myself happier. However, sometimes i feel very sad inside but i just laugh it out, so tt my brothers will not worry about me... is what i said really true i also not so sure about myself? Intend to write a lot however my mind is blank again, maybe continue next time bah......

I always wonder who will be the one to really understand me..... i'm waiting for the inner me...?

Changes

Not sure what to say, i felt that a lot of things changes around me, or rather i changes, i also not so sure about myself haha...... I just felt that things were not going so good around me everyday but i don't know why!!! Recently i felt that i become very bad luck, both my hands got burnt and cuts around, then tonight i went to buy "teh ice"(take away) but halfway the bag got hole and the drink leak away haha...... Hmm, still got a lot i can't remember as who the hell noob will always think about the past that make me so painful haha......

By the way i gone back to the noob shop to work haha...... As a part time instead of full time, also the paid was higher so i went back. However, i find that something is not right this time as something is just not right. Recently, too much things happened that make me very confuse so what i did may be wrong i also not know...... What is the something actually, even me myself don't know......

Where i belong, only my soul know my future route......

Dead

After 2 weeks staying over at guang zhou i finally back in singapore today morning at 4. About 4 hours in the small freaking tiger airways i really feel like jumping off the plane haha, i only can force myself into sleep to past this 4 hours journey. I alighted at the buget terminal, it is really buget as it don't even have a fast food restaurant and my stomach was so empty that moment, haiz...

Until i reach home i can't sleep well because i had not got my O level results. Until about 3 my friends accompany me went to school and took my results and after all, hopes gone. The results were really really bad, i also not sure what to say, a lot of friends ask me to cry it out to make myself more comfortable but i will not!!! ITE lor, all my fault as i didn't work hard, cry also no use wat.(unless cry can make me into poly)

It was lucky that i still have a lot of friends and brothers supporting me, without them i really feel that staying alive is boring haha... At least until now no one look down on me as i can not make it to poly (i hope they don't lar haha).

Happy Valentine Day to all my brothers & friends, and also enjoy Happy New Year..... look forward to our future......

China

I'm now writing this post at guang zhou, it is so boring here, i want to go back to singapore as soon as possible, everyday i am counting the day that i can go back. Worst of all, my grandparents always disturb me haha, there is never a day here that i can rest in peace, every time say me this say me that then the last phrase will be, " it is for your own good..." , I have enough!!!

Yesterday worst, it was about 11pm and i going down for supper with my uncles, then i lost my way sia, take me half an hour to find back my way home. Actually in the middle of the road i'm going to reach the restaurant, however i stop halfway as i feel that i was on the wrong track so i walk back. If i walk a bit more and i will reach the restaurant, i feel that i was so stupid tt time......

There is about 5 more days......

Enough...

Today wake up before 11 sia i was shock because i already quit my job then still so auto wake up so early, then nth to do sia so bored at home, lucky my dad accompany me go orchard eat lurch. However, not even 20mins like tt he left alone then go have fun himself liao... Then i take my time in the restaruant eating and thinking of where to go later as all along i was alone until night!!!

Today i feel very unhappy as a lot of things is not going so good, just alight the bus my dad almost kana bang by a cab but is my dad fault lar never see clearly then walk across haha(i'm such a unfaithful son). Later we go 7-eleven buy smth then c****** got one old woman like not happy say tt i block her f***ing way... Then after having lurch i alone at orchard so boring lor, so confuse of going anywhere... Then go all the way to bugis play lan(dota), can't even win COM(normal), WTF!!! Then got one last thing tt make me very unhappy but can not say haha......

Lucky, friends are everywhere... although tonight raining but we enjoy playin basketball in the rain, i like rain because it can make my hair stand very tall, more effective then wax or gem haha... After we're all wet i feel very happy, although the stress gone for awhile but i know tt in this world, friends is most important to me then anything else......

A few more days i leave le, dun miss me my friends, "BE RIGHT BACK" haha......

Last Day

Time have passed so fast and i already work in "BOSSES" for 2 months, and tomorrow is my last day. I still remember that when i first come to this restaurant i was a noob haha... everyday i keep improving and learn a lot of things in the kitchn through my colleuges and my chef, although until now i still have a lot of things not learn yet but tomorrow i have to leave already... Actually there is unlimited things to learn in the kitchen, maybe those i have learnt don't even have 10% haha...

Too bad i can not go back to this restaurant as they don't want me this kind of student mode haha, but my chef may ask me go back to help if they are short of manpower haha... Maybe duing Chinese New Year they will need me and of course i will go help! But should i find another job after i come back...?

During this 2 months, i know almost everyone and i able to make a lot of friends. I hope they don't miss me so much after i have left haha, i should say i will miss them a lot... Lucky i have their phone number, maybe ask them or supper some days... I'll never forget them!!!!!!

I'm leaving on monday but don't need to send me off le(if any) haha... I'll be back very soon so don't miss me everyone......

sianz

Tonight after work very bored and tired so i decided to sit in front of the com and write something about my life recently HAHA...... As school has started, less customers had visited our restaurant.(less work to me haha) However, i still need to stand in the kitchen as there is no place to sit. A few days ago i just got my paid from the shop, because of the DAM CPF, i feel that my paid become so little!!!

By the way, i will be quiting on the 25th Jan(most probably), as i'm flying to HK and Guang Zhou on the 29th Jan(most probably). Sorry for the false alarm in the past, but this will not be a false alarm anymore...... I heard that the temperature there is 15 degree and below, i hope that it will go higher when i reach haha......

Anyone willing to send me off? haha...rmb to tag me brothers & sisters!!!

Bored

It has been very long since now i write again, as recently i need to work from morning till night so no time and no mood to write, however because of my brothers and friends so i write something for you all to show my sincerity haha...... This new year is so bored as i can only see firework at vivo's bus stop, i see other people is enjoying themselves but i am alone at the bus stop waiting for bus. Everyday i am so tired and stress after work, however i will quit before most slicely 8 JAN because i'm flying back to Guang Zhou on between 14-16 JAN...... Not sure whether going back is a wise choice as i'm afraid that i will miss something, even thought it is only about a 2 weeks trips......

Working in BOSSES for more then a month, i learn a lot of things and meet a lot of brothers and friends, espically the chief and ladies there i will never forget haha...... I'll afraid that i will drop my tears(which is very hard for you guys to see i dropped, haha)....... Haiz, th plane i take really sucks, tiger airline, no tv and so small, better pray for a pretty lady sit beside me haha!!!!

Maybe i end here for today as i don't feel like writing anymore, i'll be waiting for this special day to come, ****** hahahaha......... Good Night Everyone!